Ever been in a situation where you just don’t know what to say?
The shock of what you’ve just heard leaves you not knowing what to even pray?
Ever have a moment where you know within your heart what needs to be said, but when you open your mouth it comes out wrong or not at all?
What about when you know exactly what you need God to do, but when you go to talk to him about it, through the tears and sadness the only words that come out is “Help me!”
How about when the busyness of your day keeps you occupied but as soon as you lay down to sleep the thing that is weighing on your heart is alive and active?
Well recently I’ve been in a situation similar to this. Despite the GENUINE smiles and successes you may see in my life, something is heavy on my heart. I truly trust God about it and know that He will cause all things to work together for the good, yet the thought of knowing this situation is happening breaks my heart. Last night I found myself trying to sleep yet this weight, this concern lead me to tears.
Me: (quickly wiping tears, trying to pray but words aren’t working) God I gave this to you!! I really trust you so I don’t need to cry!
God: Sometimes tears are words. Remember I bottle all your tears….
So I quickly searched for that scripture knowing it would probably give me some sort of relief.
The Message version read it best for me:
You’ve kept track of my every toss and turn through the sleepless nights.
Each tear entered into your ledger, each ache written in your book .
NLT reads it like this:
You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in a bottle. You have recorded each one in your book
I can’t say I immediately felt peace yet I did find comfort in knowing my tears were okay. Knowing that my tears aren’t in vain, not just simple expressions of my emotions, but actual prayers to God. Why because God knows everything… in our moments of silence, tears, anguish, when words don’t work- He knows exactly what you need as His child and He is attentive to your needs. (Psalm 120: 1 0 In my distress I cried to the Lord, and He answered me.)
So the next time you feel like you need to hold your tears back, or your signal of distress means you don’t trust God… run back to His Word. IT IS TRUE! Allow those tears to serve as your prayer, as your release from that weight, as the act of casting that care to God – and watch your comfort come!